Longtime no Koz

I've been keeping busy lately so I haven't been posting. I go in emotional loops which I keep under control but it does cause a great deal of fatigue. I made several rough drafts for the blog but the content was just too emo even for my standards. I've been looking for a positive outlet for my stress but right now the only answer seems to keep busy.

So I attended a new meet up group this week. I was pleasantly surprised by the crowd. Having spent the majority of my University career depressed, isolated, and anxious I don't really have a ton of experience interacting with my peers. I exchanged numbers with a couple of the attendees. I think I'll text them next week to see if we can meet up for drinks or something.

So one of my goals for the year 25 is to work on just being me and not judging myself. On its face it would seem easy however it has been an incredibly daunting task. I've worried about everything for 22 1/2 years out of 25. My neurosi are part of me. Despite the negative impact that they may have I don't know how I would function without them. They comfort me.

To Austin and Back

Went down to Austin to meet with a veganfreakie. I'm not in much a a thinking mode right now so I'll will just start a list.

Stuff I learned in Austin





1. I need to bring a bike to get around and really see the sites.

2. Dhaba Joy has the BEST cookies that I've ever eaten at a bakery.

3. Vegan Mac N Cheese is fucking outstanding

4. This one non descript building on the UT campus was actually the Library

5. I so miss being at school. I wanted to go in the stacks and wander.

6. I will be back and soon. Fuck big D and its pretensions.

7. Its not too far away for me to have a girlfriend there.

8. It is my life goal to be draped in hemp and scented with patchouli.

9. I really, really miss trees.

10. Mothers Cafe really, really, burned the fuck down. It was totally different from what I remembered. The food however rocked.